Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Lessons I hope to teach my kids before I die..in random order...

A lot has happened this past year that has caused me to look back at my life and wonder what kind of legacy I would leave for my kids if I were to die today. Now I don't plan on doing that anytime soon. But there are some important things I have learned in my life and I hope I have time to teach them to my kids... some religious, some just basic decent human skills. So I have decided to share them here, in hopes of keeping track of them and being able to put my thoughts on paper. Hopefully one day my kids will appreciate all of this.
Lesson #1 Empathy
Probably one of the greatest and hardest lessons I learned from my mom is to always look at the other persons point of view. I think people get empathy and sympathy mixed up. Sympathy is feeling bad for someone, for what they are going through. Empathy, basically, is being able to look at a situation from the other persons point of view. To be able to see a situation as someone else sees it is very hard to do, but my mother constantly tried to get us to do this as we were growing up. It's very hard to be mad at someone when you can see things from their perspective. But I have noticed as I do this I am less likely to judge them and more likely to love them. Now don't get me wrong, sometimes I don't want to see things from their point of view. Sometimes I want to be mad. But this has been ingrained in me so much it's hard for me to not have empathy for others.
Why do I think this is important? Well, it ties in with another lesson....
Lesson #2 Forgivness
When you can see something from someone else's perspective, it is easier to forgive them. One thing I have realized is that forgiveness is not for the person that has hurt or offended me, it is for me. I am a better person when I am able to forgive someone, whether they ask for it or not. I hate being mad at someone or having ill feelings towards others, I feel like it is a poison inside of me and why would you want a poison inside of you? I look at others in my life who refuse to forgive others and they are very sad and bitter people who constantly blame others for where they are in life. I don't want to be like that. I want to be the kind of person who has control of my own life, regardless of the choices that other people make. I just simply refuse to be the kind of person that let other peoples actions dictate the person I am. And I want my children to be the same way.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Children

I have found that the older my children get, my relationship with the Lord has changed. When they were small, I know I have spent countless hours on my knees, praying for guidance in how to raise them. Most of my prayers were centered on me, on me learning what I need to, to be able to teach them how to be good people when they grow up, for me to have patience, for me to be more kind, more loving. Now, I find myself spending countless hours on my knees praying for guidance for them. As they grow older and start making their own decisions, I know I can't force them to do what I do, believe what I believe. So I plead with the Lord that He will stay a constant influence in their lives, that He will help them remember what they have been taught. The hardest thing I have experienced as a parent is watching my children make their own decisions and then have to suffer the consequences of bad decisions. And I know the only thing I can do is pray, set a good example for them, and love them unconditionally as I know the Savior loves each of us. Even though He may not like the decisions we make, especially ones that take us away from Him, He still loves each of us. His arm is still stretched out to us. His grace and mercy is still extended to us if we will just take it. This is my prayer for my kids, that they will realize this also and choose to stay in His loving presence.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Jenna vs Snow White

Jenna found many comparisons to herself while watching Snow White.

While the mirror was describing Snow White- "Mom, that sounds just like how I look!"

Anytime Snow White was talking to the animals= "Mom, I love animals and they love me too!"

When Snow White layed down to take a nap- "She is getting her beauty rest, just like me!"

The first time Snow White was referred to as a Princess- "Mom, I'm a princess too!"

on Doc- "He's smart like me!"

on Dopey- "He's funny, just like me!"

on Happy- "He's happy and smiley, like me!"

on Sneezy- "He sneezes a lot, like I do, huh Mom?"

on Sleepy- "I'm only sleepy when I need my beauty sleep."

on Grumpy and Bashful- "They aren't like me at all!"

Haha, at least she has a healthy self esteem!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Emmalene

Well, yesterday was Emma's birthday. I can't believe that she is 10 years old. So much happened and I look at her and realize what a miracle she is. Many people do not know everything that happened during her pregnancy and what it took to get her here.
It started when Jacob was 2 weeks old. Jason woke up one day and said "I had a dream about a little girl with dark hair and blue eyes, and I think we are suppose to have her now." Well, as you can imagine with a 2 week old, I laughed it off. But he kept talking about it and it became a point of contention with us. I finally said " There is no way the Lord is going to ask me to have another baby, so soon after s having another." To which Jason countered with "Have you prayed about it?", which I did so sure that I would be proven right. Well I was wrong and I came to know that this little girl was suppose to come to our family. But it took over a year and a miscarriage till I was finally pregnant.
During this time we had made a move up to Lyman, Wyoming. The only family around was Jason's Aunt, whom at the time I did not know very well. The closest Dr was approx 45 minutes away in Evanston. I was automatically considered high risk because of my previous 2 pregnancies and the closest high risk Dr was in Salt Lake, just over 2 hours away. I was put on light bedrest at the very beginning because of my history. Bedrest is hard with a 4 year old and 2 year old. I soon became very ill and was hospitalized due to dehydration and losing 15 lbs in a month. I was in the hospital for 5 days and the day after I was released I started bleeding. At first they said it was a popped vessel by the cervix and would stop bleeding within a few days, however days turned into 2 weeks. They said the bleeding had moved up by the placenta and was causing it to detach. By this point, Emma had stopped growing, and was measuring 2 weeks behind. The Dr in Evanston told me to abort her. He said that for her to go that long without growing showed a serious problem and that IF she was born, she would be physically and mentally disabled and that I would not want to saddle myself with a child like that. He gave me a less than 10% chance of having her at all. I remember sitting there in disbelief, first that I may not have my baby, and second that the Dr was advising me to get an abortion. I walked out of the office with Jason and said "Take me to Salt Lake, to Cottonwood Hospital." I wanted another opinion. Just prior to us leaving I asked Jason for a blessing. In that blessing I was told, not that everything would be ok, but that this specific trial was being given to me for a reason, and that in order to have my baby I would need to totally rely on Heavenly Father and not on the Dr's, and that if I had complete faith in Him, I would have my baby and she would be whole. It seems easy enough to believe. Then we went to Salt Lake. The ER Dr, after doing an ultrasound, advised me to go see a high-risk specialist. He said he didn't see how I was going to have this baby, but they were not equiped to deal with the problems I was having. When Jason pressed the Dr for more information he said that my placenta was approx 7 1/2 cm by 5 1/2 cm, roughly the size of a tennis ball, that the hemmorage behind the placenta causing it to detach was 7 cm by 5 cm. Basically only 1 cm of the placenta was attached.
An appointment was made for me the next day to see the specialist and after reviewing all of the tests and ultrasounds he told me that there was no way I would be able to see the pregnancy any further, but that he would make me as comfortable as possible until I lost the baby. I went home devastated and confused. My Bishop came over that night, to see if there was anything he or the ward could do. Already the Relief Society had stepped in and were taking care of my children and cleaning my house. He gave me another blessing and repeated what was said in the first blessing, that if I had faith in the Lord, I would have my baby. I would recieve that blessing, verbatim, 3 more times but 3 different people, none of whom were present at any of the other blessings. I then became determined to build my faith in the Lord. I wanted this baby more than anything, even knowing that she could have physical or mental disabilites. I found things to do that would increase my faith which included reading the scriptures and other uplifting books, listening to uplifting music. I made a gratitude list, and went over the things I was grateful for each day and tried to add something new everyday. I tried to stay positive. For about 4 weeks the hemmorage stayed the same and she still was not growing, but she was still there. The Dr's were amazed, I was seeing 2 at this point. But they still cautioned me about the physical and mental problems that she would be born with. At this point, she had not grown for 6 weeks.
Around the 7th week I went in for a checkup and ultrasound. The Dr was unsually quiet and then brought in another Dr to look at the ultrasound. She had grown and the placenta was starting to re-attach. It was nothing short of a miracle. Soon every week the Dr noticed more and more of the placenta re-attaching and she was growing. The Dr said he had never seen anything like this and started calling her his miracle baby everytime he saw me. Every week he was amazed at her growth, in a short time she caught up to where she was suppose to be and then she started measuring bigger.
About the time the Dr declared the placenta to be fully re-attached, he also noticed I was starting to dilate. Yep, I was in pre-term labor. It was a problem I had with my other kids. I was 26 weeks along at this point. So, while I was hoping to be taken off of bedrest, I was not. Still down.
I made it to 35 weeks, when they did an amnio to determine if her lungs would be developed enough to be born, and amazingly they were.
Now here is the miraculous part Emmalene Charity Bishop was born 5 weeks early weighing in at 7 lbs 3 oz and 20 1/2 inches long. She had no sign of being born pre-mature and had no physical disabilities. Time would tell about anything mental. We were cautioned to not get our hopes up. According to the Dr's there was no way she would have suffered during the pregnancy the way she did and not have any side effects.
Well 10 years later I am happy to report there have been no side effects from her traumatic pregnancy. She is in the honors program at her school. She is bright, loves to read, has a natural ability to play the piano and sing. She is beautiful, happy and very tender hearted. She has a huge heart and is very sensitive to the feelings of those around her. She is truly my miracle child and I am so grateful that the Lord blessed my life with her. There are times I wish I could take her to the Dr that told me to abort her and let him see what a miracle she is.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

It's been a while!

So it's been a few months since I have been on! I got a little addicted to facebook, and man, life is just busy! Alayna turned 14 and started 9th grade. That's technically High School. Am I really old enough to have a child that old?
Jacob turned 12 and was ordained a Deacon. I didn't realize how unprepared for that I was. He also started 7th grade. Again, I knew that was coming but was very unprepared for that.
Emma is getting ready to turn 10. She has proven to be my ditzy child, by sticking her hand in the blender when her brothers dared her to do so. Aaarrggghhhh! Luckily she still has all her fingers accounted for. The blades did slice through one of her fingernails a few times.
Ammon turned 8 and was baptized on the 4th of July. It was a great day! We had a large family BBQ afterwards and it was so much fun.
And finally Jenna started Kindergarten. My last baby to start school, and yes I cried!
We also went camping this year, our first time in a while to go camping. It was a lot of fun, good family time. I will write more about that later. Over the next week I am going to spend time on memorable events in our family. We are getting ready to celebrate our 15 year anniversary in less than a week. I am going to try to get some pictures downloaded of our family through the year. I am so excited for this anniversary. It's a huge milestone for us.

On a side note on the weight loss, nothing new. Money has been tight, so the diet got put on the backburner. So I haven't lost anything, I think I have gained 3 lbs, but that's all. I'm going to be going back on my diet this week. So wish me luck!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Out of the mouth of Babes

Ok so my kids have been making me laugh over the years so I thought I would share some of the things they say.

On Marriage

Jenna: Mom, why won't you let me and Tristan get married now?

Mom: Because you are only 5 and Tristan is 6. You are too young.

Jenna: But we want to get married.

Mom: Well, where are you going to live?

Jenna: On Mondays and Tuesdays at Tristans and the rest of the week with you.

This is from when my 2 oldest was 4 and 2 on the difference between girls and boys

Alayna: Jacob, am I a girl or a boy?

Jacob: A girl!

Alayna: Very good!!

Jacob: What does that mean?

Alayna: (putting her arm around his shoulders) Well, that means I am always going to have to worry about you doing stupid stuff, just like Mom worries about Dad!

When Emma was about 5, I asked her to pick up the halls and stairs. Her response:"You treat me like I'm Cinderella!"

When Ammon was 3

Ammon: Mom, will you tickle(scratch) my back?

Mom: Of course

Ammon: Ahhhhhhhh! This is just like eating a burritto!

On what Faith is

Aunt Tansy: Who know's what Faith is?

Jacob:(raising his hand) I do! It's a tractor!

Aunt Tansy: A tractor?

Jacob: Yeah, you said Faith could move mountains so it has to be a tractor!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Random Thoughts

So, i joined facebook recently. I know I gave into peer pressure. And I have found a lot of friends from High School which is really cool. But I swear I think I was the only one that got out of High School, got married and started having kids. Or at least one of a very small handful of friends that did that. Most peoples oldest kids are around the age of my middle child which is 9. It makes me feel so old.
Otherwise I'm not sure what to think of the whole facebook thing. It has some games, which I have tried out, but don't much understand the point of them. Some quizzes, which are just plain silly. And you can update your status, which can be fun sometimes, but it makes me feel obligated to put something creative on there, and lets face it I am too sleep deprived to be creative most of the time. But it is something to occupy my time in the middle of the night while I try to stay awake.
I seem to have more friends that leave me little notes on facebook than on this blog so now I am trying to decide if any of this is worth it, or if I should get rid of it all and go back to my online journal that is just for little old me. I mean even my mother who tells people that I have a blog, doesn't read it. Instead she asks me what I have put on it lately and then says, good job. What's that about?
So that is where I am at. To blog or not to blog? That is the question.

Also on a side note, my weight loss total is 71 lbs. But it seems to have stopped so I need to figure out how to kick start it again. I have about 40-45 more lbs to lose.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Bragging Time

My oldest daughter is the most amazing artist. I am so jealous because I can barely draw a stick figure. Here is a picture she drew for me. She didn't trace it. To me, it's just absolutely amazing!!!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Things that irritate me

I love my children. Really I do. But I cannot stand it when they fight. It starts from the moment they walk into the door from school, and lasts sometimes past bedtime. It mainly comes from both of my sons. They both love to tease and torment their sisters. Could someone please explain to me what is so fun about making someone else cry???? And lately it seems like all they want to do is fight. AARRRRGGGHHH!!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Weight Loss

I am not doing so good on losing weight lately. Well, I lost 1 lb in a 2 week period. But I guess the good news is I haven't gained anything. I am just maintaining right now. I haven't put forth a good effort into my diet lately. I have just had a million things going on between birthdays, weddings, programs, more sick kids and working a ton. So, while I am sad I haven't really lost anything, I haven't gained either and that makes me happy. It shows me that I can do this, and after I lose all the weight I want, I can keep it off during stressful times. I haven't fallen back to any bad habits such as betos, or raiding the vending machine at work during the middle of the night for chips and chocolate. I haven't had a Diet Coke since the end of January, and Diet Coke was by big time stress reliever. So, I have to say, I am proud of myself.
My total weight lost to date is 65 lbs.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Graduation

Well, we knew this day would come, but we didn't think it would come so soon. Our youngest has graduated...from preschool that is. It was a pretty traumatic day for her. Even though we got the calander marking the last day of preschool and we talked about it, she was totally unprepared for preschool to end. While the kids were outside, the teacher talked about how much she would miss the kids and started tearing up. She said normally she doesn't cry until after all the kids have left, but Faith started crying in class and that got her started. They were talking about how they would have new teachers and noticed tears streaming down Faith's cheeks. Faith said she didn't want new teachers, she wanted to stay with them. AWWWWWW! I said that's nothing, she has been crying everyday since you sent the calander home. I am happy to report she is crying less. She still mentions her teachers daily, but we are trying to get her more excited for kindergarten. Seems to be working.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Birthday Chaos

My 2 youngest childrens birthday's are a week apart. So I got the brilliant idea to throw a double birthday party for them. We chose a local skating rink

that also has a bounce zone,
a jungle jim

and laser tag, because of course kids of all ages like these things. I figured, I would get this overwith at once, I wouldn't have to clean up and both my children would be happy. So after 10 8-9 year olds and 6 5 year olds showed up, the party began. It all started out innocent enough with everyone sitting down to eat pizza. The kids were good, happy, enjoying pizza and all was well with the world. After pizza we turned them loose. Now we had a few adults there, as well as older children to help keep track of all the kids, because I knew they would not stay together. But the mother in me, had to know where every child was and that there were no kids sneaking outside or into other peoples parties. So I spent the majority of the party, walking from area to area trying to keep track of all these kids. I think I got my 10,000 steps in for the day during those 3 hours. I helped smaller children go to the bathroom, locate lost shoes, pick up kids who fell on their skates until it was time for cake. YAY!!!


All in all, it was a good party. Kids left happy, with everything they came with, minus presents, there were no injuries, and noone was lost. My children got presents they loved and had a great time with all their friends, cousins and sibilings. Thanks to everyone that came.




Friday, May 15, 2009

JJ

A friend of mine has the cutest little boy. He was born with an Omphalocele. His liver was born on the outside of his body. He will be 3 in August and has been waiting to be a good size so that he can have his closure surgery. He finally has reached that, but now they are without insurance to pay for it. Please check out his blog, and if you can do anything to help, even and especially prayers, I know they would be grateful.
www.teamhelpjj.blogspot.com

Monday, May 11, 2009

Weight Update

I haven't gone and weighed in yet, but according to my home scale, I am have lost a grand total of 59 1/2 lbs. YAY!!!!
Weight Loss Tip- Exercise withing an hour of waking up. You burn more fat if you start of eating protien and exercising within that first hour.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

America, The Beautiful

My oldest son had the opportunity to participate in a concert with 11 other schools from our state, at Symphony Hall. The final song that all the schools sang was America the Beautiful. There were at least 500 students, maybe closer to 750. There is only one school that you can see on stage, the rest are sitting in the first 20-30 rows in the audience. It brought tears to my eyes, to hear our children singing this song. During a time, when it seems our country is struggling, this song helps me to remember, how blessed we are to live in America. I am so grateful for the Freedoms we have here, and know that we have them because of the men and women that fought for our freedoms and died for them. Both my Grandfathers served in WW2, my father was in the Army, my husband in the Marines, and my youngest brother currently serves in the Navy. How grateful I am for men like them, that are willing to defend the freedoms that God intended this country to have. I only got half of the song, before my battery died, but I hope you can feel the love and reverence for our country that these children sang with.

Friday, May 1, 2009

OH MY!


This is what happens when you let dad dress the kids for school. I don't know if you can see it well in the picture, but the shirt is turquoise with stripes of hearts of different colors, the too short shorts are blue, with like a pink wash and flowers, and the shoes, are light blue, not turquoise. Her hair is in the same do it was the night before, just the back brushed and pulled back and some pink and purple flowers added. Isn't it lovely?

Weight Update

Well, I weighed in today. I have lost a total of 54 lbs in 12 weeks. My new jeans that I bought a month ago, are now fairly loose on me. I am so excited. When I started this diet I really didn't believe that I would even be able to lose this much. I still have quite a ways to go, and I know that the more I lose, the harder it is going to get. But my eating habits have changed so much, so I actually have hope that I can meet my goal. Maybe not by the time I want to, but I believe I will reach it.
I have come to realize that I don't eat when I am sad or happy, but when I am stressed out and tired. Working graveyards it is very easy to eat to stay awake, but now I make sure I stop eating by 4 am, which is about 4 hours before I go to bed. This has made a huge difference.

Monday, April 27, 2009

A Healthy Household, once again

Well, I think this is the first day in about a month that noone has woken up with a fever, sore throat, throwing up or some other ailment. It first started with the oldest child and made it's way through all of the kids. For some of them, it hit the twice, and for some it took weeks to get rid of.
Poor David, started a running a fever in the middle of Great Grandma's viewing, and my mom had to come and get him. His fever lasted 6 days. Now, he is one that when he gets sick, he drops weight, and is allergic to the common antibiotics you can give children. So, since the Dr had no idea what was wrong, they didn't want to just put him on antibiotics since most are too strong for him. So we watched, waited and prayed while he dropped a few pounds, till his fever disappeared and he started gaining his strength back. Now we need to help him gain weight again.



Another fun thing that happened. Right before easter we were at Walmart, when some out of control child ran straight into my youngest, Faith. Her head smacked into the cart and immediately she started to scream. The other childs mother came and grabbed her child, gave me a dirty look and proceeded to say something in spanish while pulling her child away from us. Now, I don't speak spanish, but I know enough to know that she wasn't apologizing. While part of me wanted to chase her down and make her acknowledge what her child had done to mine and make them apologize, my child was screaming and needed to be dealt with. When she finally pulled her face away from me, I noticed a horrible bruise already forming under her left eye. I looked up to see if they were still around, but they were long gone. So, Faith, got to wear a beautiful new easter dress with a black eye. We convinced her the black eye matched with her outfit. I mean pink and purple do go together right. She proudly showed off her black eye at church as an accessory along with her new purse and easter hat.


Thursday, April 23, 2009

Get them started young



We thought, given the bad economy and all, it might be a good idea for our kids to get jobs...haha.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Gray Hair

Well, it happened. I woke up today and found a very long, very gray hair in my bangs. It's official, I am getting old. :(
I don't know how I feel about that yet.
On a side note, I wanted to post my weight loss today. I actually am going in tomorrow to weigh in, but so far I have lost 47 1/2 lbs in 10 weeks...YAY!!!! Only about 60 more to go to reach my goal.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Finally, At Peace


Grams
May 24, 1926 - April 15, 2009
We will truly miss you. Thank you for all you have done for us. We are grateful you are now at peace. We love you Grandma. You lived a good life, and endured well to the end. You are a great example to all of us to live as we believe.

National Emergency Telecommunicators Week

For those of you who don't know what I do, I am a 911 calltaker, police and fire disptacher. I love my job. I love being able to help people.
This week is National Emergency Telecommunicators Week. This was sent around my work a while ago and was written by Sherrif Winder of the SLCO Sherrifs Dept. This describes what I do every night.

For my fellow dispatchers, thank you for all you do. You truly are heros.


What do you take for granted?

There are some things we all take for granted. We all walk into a room and turn on the light and expect that the lights will come on. We get into our car turn the key and expect that the engine will start. And many of us get into our police cars every day, check on and expect dispatch will be there.



Dispatch is always there and all too often we do take them for granted. We assume that no matter what happens we will always be able to push the button and someone will not only answer, but have the answers to some of the most bizarre questions. Who is responsible for the running water at 8850 West 2800 South? Will animal control respond on a missing python? Call the airport and tell them to stop the planes from coming over us. These and many, many more requests are received and addressed by our Dispatch Center every single day.


We all believe we have the hardest job, it is human nature, weather we are Patrol Deputies, Housing Officers or Intake Clerks we often convince ourselves that what we do is by far the most stressful and on any given day it may be. But take a moment and think about the role of the Dispatcher.


These men and women come to work every day and every night and immediately begin to field calls from angry, upset and frightened individuals. People who are in crisis are often not the nicest to deal with especially over the phone. They scream they threaten, and they demand. When the Deputies arrive on scene the people even if they were completely out of line on the phone with the dispatcher tend to calm down, after all they are now speaking face to face to another human and they are speaking with someone who may just take them to jail. But to the dispatcher no such restraint exists.


And unfortunately it is not just the public who speaks in less than kind tones to our dispatchers. Occasionally Deputies find themselves in stressful situations and may unintentionally take it out on the person on other end of the line. I have, on more than a few occasions heard Deputies bark at the dispatcher when they couldn't find an address, or when a tow truck failed to appear in a reasonable amount of time.


All of the stress of the rude and discourteous people pales in comparison to one aspect of the Dispatchers job.


Imagine sitting in a room with head phones on at 2:30 in the morning. You haven't heard the radio crackle for 30 minutes, then suddenly, you hear a Deputies' panicked voice. "Salt Lake Charlie 31, priority". Your heart begins to race as the adrenaline races into your blood, and yet you have to hold it together. "Go ahead 30". "Salt Lake I am 10-80 East bound 5400 South 4800 West, 100 Miles per hour blue Ford truck 3 suspects". Now your adrenaline really begins to pump and yet you still must hold it together. You hit the tones on your console alerting every on duty member of the Sheriffs Office that a pursuit has begun and at the same time you have just ensured that every Deputy, regardless of location is now switching to listen to YOUR pursuit.


"All units Charlie 30 is in pursuit East bound 5400 South from 4800 West with a blue ford truck occupied three times." The Deputy keys his microphone and nearly screams into the radio, "Salt Lake suspect has just gone dark, still east bound approaching 4000 West". Now the terror really sets in as you realize that a 5000 pound bullet, traveling 100 plus miles an hour is heading for a main intersection without its lights on. After repeating the Deputies traffic, you wait for the next location... and it doesn't come.


Dispatchers have many skills, skills that are honed over years of working under these stressful conditions and one of these skills is the ability to know how long is too long when it comes to a Deputies response. As the mental clock ticks, you become more and more concerned. "What's taking so long", you key your head set and you call, "Charlie 30",...no response, you wait a few more seconds, seconds that seem like hours, "Charlie 30" you say, your voice raising. Now not only are you afraid but so is every other person listening to the radio traffic. Has the chase ended? Are they out on foot? Does the Deputy have them at gun point? Or worst of all, has something happened to the Deputy.


After several attempts at trying to raise the pursuing deputy, and your heart sinking, you hear it. The traffic you have dreaded. "Charlie 35, I have arrived 4000 West 5400 South 10-50." Immediately you know what has happened. Two vehicles, one occupied by a person you have been working with for years, that were previously traveling at over 100 miles per hour are now in a twisted heap in an intersection miles away from where you are and there is now little if anything you can do.


As you hear the other Units Arrive it becomes clearer and clearer that something is terribly wrong. "Where is Charlie 30" you think and then you hear it, the sound of a Deputy screaming " send medical."


As the minutes click by you are only able to function because you must. After all, you still have much to do. You must still account for all of the other Units that are arriving, now from all over the valley. You must call for medical and provide as much detail as possible, and you must still hold it together!


Finally the words you wanted, and yet didn't want to hear. "Salt Lake we have 4 victims, 2 are 10-85 delta and 2 charlie minus." Now the reality of the dreadful situation sets in. "This is not good, not good at all", all of the victims are in critical condition and two are possibly fatal. And still no one has bothered to inform you how the Deputy is doing.


There is a phenomenon that occurs in these types of situations. The Deputies and emergency responders on the scene shift into a kind of automation. They know what to do and they are doing it, but for some reason they believe that the dispatchers, perhaps because they are not physically on scene don't need to know exactly what is going on. Because the men and women on the scene can see with there own eyes what is happening they become transfixed and loose sight of the fact that somewhere in a dimly lit room there is a person who is as much a part of the incident as any of them.


This, my friends, is stress. So remember next time you key that microphone, it isn't a light bulb turning on, or a car starting up, it's a human being, a friend, a partner and most importantly a vital part of our family.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

A Great Women

My husbands Grandmother is dying.
I was able to see her for a few minutes, to tell her I love her and tell her thank you for the influence she has been in my life. She helped inspire my husband to love the gospel. He remembers sitting at her house, reading scriptures and remembers a warm, peaceful feeling there. He describes her as one of the greatest women he has ever known. She helped to make him the person he is today, a hard worker, dedicated to the Gospel, honest, full of integrity.
Me, I remember eating Chinese food, guacamole, singing songs, playing card games and listening to stories about when she was a young mother, with hyper children. She gave me a lot of advice, some maybe I didn't appreciate so much, but some that helped make me, I hope, a better person, a better wife and a better mother. I love her and respect her for who she was and what she stood for.
It was so hard to see her suffering so, and I pray for the Lords mercy on her that she will not have to suffer much longer.
Thank you, Grandma. For everything. You are loved and you will be missed. Till we meet again.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

New Jeans

I just went and bought 4 new pairs of jeans, 2 sizes smaller than I was in 2 months ago. Let's face it, well really 1 size but I was barely fitting into those and could only put them on if they were damp, and I layed on the bed and sucked it. Then I would walk around unable to breathe until they stretched out. So I should have been in a size bigger, but I refused to buy anything bigger. I have been told I am stubborn. I guess that proves it.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Gratitude List

I am grateful that when I wake up, at whatever time of day, my kids are always happy to see me. They rush up from where ever they are in the house to give me a hug and tell me 5 million things at once.
I am grateful for spring. Except this spring, I really wish it would just stop snowing.
I am grateful for my health.

Update

I have lost 5 more lbs this week. I am so excited. I need to lose 3 more to hit another goal I set for myself, so that I can get my hair colored. YAY!!! I am hoping I can lose the majority of what I need to so that I can look good when I take my husband on a super secret 15th anniversary trip I am planning for us this September. I am not so sure we are going to be able to go to Disneyland this August.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Gratitude List

I am grateful that even though my kids seem out of control sometimes, at school and other places, they are well behaved and that their teachers are all glad to have them in their class. Their teachers are constantly commenting on how polite and helpful they are, and how they are always happy. One teacher commented on time, that Dallin was like her morning cup of coffee. She would start out having a bad day but he would always say hi and give her a compliement, and that would make her day better.

Kids

I was reading my sister in laws' blog about funny sounds or words her kids are saying/doing lately. It reminded me of when my older kids were much smaller. I didn't write a lot down like I should have, and normally I don't have a good memory, but where my kids are concerned I can remember quite a bit.
When my oldest, Hope, was around 18 months, she woke up one morning, crying for a "bano". She walked around the house looking for this "bano" and I had no idea what it was. For about a week she was constantly asking about it and we were clueless as to what she wanted. One day we were out on a drive and passed by a car dealership that was having a large sale and she started screaming "Bano! Bano!" We realized she was pointing to the several ballons that were tied all over the place. "Bano" = Balloon. Ahhh. Then I remembered, she had a balloon that popped just prior to going to bed. So we stopped at a store and got her a ballon, and she was happy again.
Dallin, didn't really talk until he was 2, but he would say a few words here and there. His first word was "this", 2nd word was "that". Whenever he wanted something he would just point and say "this" It was pretty entertaining. When he did talk, his phonics were amazing. I think he just waited to talk until he knew he could do it right. When he was just over 2, he came in to my room one morning and said "Mom, can you get me a bowl of cereal please?" I about fell out of bed because the night before, it was just animal noises and grunts. From then on, it was complete sentences for him.
I'll save more memories for a later time. That's all for now.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Diet Secret

Eat protien for breakfast, within an hour of waking up.
That has been very hard for me. Not the protien part, but eating breakfast. Mostly because I wake up at all different times of the day. But, I have been trying to eat 2 eggs for breakfast within an hour after waking up. Sometimes I have a protien shake. Protien within an hour of waking up is suppose to kick start your metabolism for the day.

Gratitude List

I am grateful for my husband and all that he does to lead this family righteously. I admire his persistance and dedication. And most of all I am grateful for his desire to please our Father in Heaven. He is a great example for me
I am grateful for a job, in this tough economy, that is helping to take care of my family.
I am grateful for the time I get to spend with my children each day. I learn so much from them every single day.

Scripture Time

At the beginning of the year, we decided to spend time each night reading out of the scriptures with our kids. Now, we had been doing this, but we were reading out of the Book of Mormon reader, and illustrated stories from the Old/New Testament and Book of Mormon, which is fine when you have small kids, but when they start getting to be teenagers, that bores them and they don't want to participate.
So we decided to read out of the actual scriptures. We are starting with the Book of Mormon. When we first started our night went something like this. We would read a verse, then each child would proceed to ask what certian words meant. Often each child would ask what the same word went. So to read a chapter was a very time consuming event, fraught with headaches, kids getting tired and losing interest and parents becoming frustrated, but trying not to show it so that it wouldn't drive the Spirit, if it was there, away.
Now we are almost done with 2 Nephi, we finish the last chapter tonight. And I noticed something last night. While we still are explaining what words means, the questions from the kids have turned more to "what does this verse mean?" and "isn't this like the verse in this chapter that we read a few weeks ago?" WOW. They are actually paying attention and learning something. We have had some very good conversations with the kids about the scriptures. And they are sharing their feelings about it. There has been such a strong spirit present, often times it is very hard to stop the discussion for bed.
It's times like this that I realize why patience and persistance are important. And like maybe, just maybe we are doing something right.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Drum Roll Please...

Well, It's been a while since I first posted because of my crazy life. But I am happy to say that I have lost 37 lbs. YAY!!! I am so excited. I don't know how many inches but I have lost 3 shirt sizes and almost 2 pants size. So, I am proud of myself. I will post more later.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Hello!!

After much internal debate, I have decided to join the world of blogging. I am still trying to get pictures and everything set up and that may take a few days. I hope this will be a way for those who live far away to stay caught up with our family.
I am also going to use this to help me be accountable for a goal I am trying to reach. Weight loss!!! Yes, I have quite a bit of weight to lose, partly due to having 5 kids and working a graveyard shift where I mostly just sit around and snack on foods that are not so good for me. How much weight do I need to lose? Well a girl has to keep her secrets, but I will be posting how many inches, and sizes I am down as well as some of my diet secrets. I am going to have to work extra hard because of my graveyard schedule, but am determined to be down to a size 8 by the time our family goes to DISNEYLAND in August. YAY!!
This is a before picture below. I am the one on the right, with my DH and his Grandmother.

As you can see I have a ways to go to get to my goal size. Wish me luck!